Because these entries have been archieved the most recent ones are at the bottom.

28th April
Some time after 9:00pm
Am sitting in the middle room with my brand new laptop. This thing seems like the perfect opportunity to resurrect the old website journal thingy. I can take it with me to school and the shop and work on entries there and stuff, also I should hope not to lose this in the same way as I did with my old entries, ha.

Right now Dad and I are watching The Jazz Singer I really wanted to go to bed by now, I’m shattered, probably not helped by the fact that I’ve spent the past few hours sat in front of this Laptop. That’s bound to make your eyes tired.

I only got it yesterday and I’ve spent most of my time since then playing on it. Yesterday I took it down the shop with me in the bag that Will got for me to carry it in, but, being the clever-clogs I am, I left the games I wanted to put onto it at home (CSI and Age of Mythology). I didn’t want to put too many games onto it as it’s supposed to be a studying machine, for Uni. But I was bored, so Dad gave me one of the games he had down the shop, something called Galactic Civilisations which is quite complex and I suck at.

Today I took the laptop to school and while I was there I did a little HTMLing, played some Spider Solitaire, typed a little of a pseudo-English-essay and then later installed the CSI game. It took so long to install that by the time I was done I had to shut it all down. So in the end I stayed down the shop and played CSI. THAT I’m good at, kinda. At least I got 100% for the first two cases, I kinda went down hill after that.

Yesterday was brilliant, it was my birthday, which is nice enough in itself. Eighteen years old! I stayed up until 1:20am to see in my birthday, that was the time that I was born at, although by rights I should have started celebrating at six the previous evening, as that’s when my Mum’s waters broke. Technically I only saw up to 1:17am, as I dozed off shortly afterwards, but that was going by the clock in my bedroom which is slightly fast so by rights I probably did see in 1:20, lol.

I woke up at about six and then again at about seven, when Dad woke me up and so, of course, I got up. Then I went down for breakfast, but that was only about half seven and my grandparents wouldn’t be up for another half an hour, so I busied myself with the showbiz news on Sky and with the Winnie the Pooh ornament I got the day before. It’s a calendar thing which you have blocks to turn over to show the day and month, so it never goes out of date.

When Nanny and Grampy came downstairs I was handed two boxes. The biggest was from Will and it contained my laptop bag, not the regular satchel style laptop bag, or shoulder bag type thing, but a back pack, which means that I can use it for school books and the like, carrying it on my back saves my back from getting pulled over to one side by a shoulder bag, also when I’m away at Uni it’s harder to pinch a back pack than a bag being carried in someone’s hand. It’s black and blue and has three pockets, with various built in bits for pens, cards and the laptop. It also came with a built in CD holder which holds about 24 CDs and is already proving useful.

Then came the fun bit. The second and smaller parcel contained the laptop, which I only had a few minutes to play with, I played about half a game of Spider Solitaire, then I had to go to school. The laptop got stuck in its carry bag and put into the car and I took my school bag to school with me. The laptop went down the shop.

Dad gave me a lift to school, I decided against wearing uniform and instead settled for black trousers, a loose white summer top with three-quarter length sleeves and the bright pink Sketchers trainers Dad had got me the day before at TK Max for £19.99. It wasn’t until I got up to the door and saw a sign saying that ‘Rothesay Acadmey welcomed HMIe for [their] inspection’ (which couldn’t have been further from the truth) that I realised that perhaps I wasn’t dressed in the most appropriate manner. Needless to say nobody minded, in fact plenty of people thought my trainers were pretty cool.

I had a double free period first thing which I spent working on my gum wrapper chain. It’s now much longer than me, lol. I didn’t have anything better to do seeing as I’d left my notepad at home and couldn’t be bothered with doing homework on my birthday. So I sat there folding, wetting, tearing and folding Wrigleys gum wrappers. Then after that I should have gone to double Business Management, more so because I hadn’t been since the previous Wednesday for a Unit Test, I hadn’t even been back for the results from it. Instead I went to this thing with the poet Tom Leonard. That was literally indescribable. I don’t want to say that it was bad, because it wasn’t all that bad, just irritating. I get the feeling that I could have liked it, but for numerous reasons I didn’t.

Firstly, I’m not a big fan of Tom Leonard’s poetry, as far as I’m concerned a poem is something which either rhymes or has some form of rhythm or structure. Tom Leonard’s works tend to be rambling streams of thought or a long sentence. It also didn’t help the way that he read them, he paused at the end of every line, even if there was no need for a pause. That just meant that he was breaking up and drawing out an already pretty broken up poem.

Also, when he spoke I think that he must have actually finished about one in ten sentences. He’d sort of go “I was feeling very angry when I wrote this poem and I think… Anyway…” and then he’d go on to read a poem. The problem with this is you never actually got the point he was trying to make, and also, it took you a couple of moments to get whether or not he was reading the poem, or whether he was still rambling.

Unfortunately for me Cave Troll sat beside me, and kept on turning round telling me to ask him a question. For a brief moment I entertained the idea of asking him if he ever did any proper poetry, but I let that one go, I mean he was nice enough, if a little sweaty, and everyone’s entitled to their own opinion, even about poetry.

After that I went on down to the shop and played on the laptop. There was a card there for me from Brian, Dad’s friend who comes into the shop, and a card and present from Mark and Maria, who own the Tartan shop, three doors down from ours. The present was one of these Winnie the Pooh wall plate things, Dad had bought me one in there a little while back, and so now I have two. Which reminds me, tomorrow I have to go in there and say thanks to them for it, I mean those things cost about £20!

Lisa brought me a little gift bag in, one of those gold shiny things, inside was a Tatty Teddy card and a Tatty Teddy bear with 18 on it. On the way down to town I’d picked her up a box of chocolates, and two candles (one pink, one purple), her birthday is exactly two weeks before mine, although I’d overlooked it while we’d been on holiday and forgotten to get her a present. Then it was a brief trek to the card shop, wrapping paper, card and gift bag. Then I wrapped them up after she’d left ready to take round to her after school.

I had to go back up to the school for ten to three, Geography, she made us do real work, which annoyed me a little, lol. But we did stop a little early and everyone in the class chatted about birthdays and the like. She never lets us go early, so we had to wait until the bell went, everyone else in the class is in this Young Enterprise thing, out of seven people in the class I’m the only one who isn’t, so most of the talk was about this presentation thing on Thursday/Friday.

Then it was back to the shop and laptop where I was stuck until just after six. Then onwards home to phone Robyn, although she was a little annoyed that her parcel hadn’t arrived yet. We chatted about birthdays, our stories, and school. Then right before we hung up we had the following exchange:
Robyn: You know you’re closer to thirty than I am?
Me: Don’t push it Robyn.
Robyn: No. You’re the one pushing it!
LOL, interesting anyway.

I didn’t spend my 18th birthday getting drunk or out with my friends. I pretty much crashed on the sofa and relaxed, watching CSI with Dad. It’s the way I wanted to spend my birthday. I don’t know what it is but I’ve gone off parties as such, sitting around drinking in a social setting is fine when you’re with sensible people, but most of the people that I know like to take it as an opportunity to just get silly.

After that I went to bed and was asleep so quickly it was amazing. I think I was out of it before my head touched the pillow. All in all it was a pretty good birthday, and I got this cool laptop and everything. Plus the whole event was kind of drawn out over three days, what with shopping on the 26th, the birthday on the 27th and then Robyn’s presents arriving today (along with my laptop light which Dad ordered for me). I’m not complaining, people can go on sending me presents for as long as they like.

Now I think that The Jazz Singer is drawing to a close, Neil Diamond is singing ‘We’re Coming to America’ which seeing as it was the song playing at the beginning is probably showing that it’s almost at an end. So I should probably wrap things up too. I’ve got a double free first thing tomorrow I should be able to cover what I did then, when we went shopping in Clydebank and Greenock. But for now I think I shall go ahead and save all two and a bit pages of this journal entry and head off to bed.

29th April
2:20pm
Right now I should be in Geography, but apparently the teacher isn’t there today, so there’s really very little point in going. So instead I’m stuck down the shop while Dad goes out to sort out someone’s internet. He shouldn’t actually be too long, especially as I’ve got an appointment at the doctors, I’m supposed to be getting my shots for Russia. Injections don’t really bother me, but I’m not a huge fan of doctors, lol, so hopefully Dad’ll come in with me. Well… he’d better, or else there’ll be trouble.

I’m really not being very good about going to school at the moment, I’ve not been to school on a Monday for about four weeks now (granted we did have two weeks holiday earlier, and it’s a bank holiday next Monday, but still…) On Monday this week (the 26th) Dad took me shopping on the mainland as a sort of pre-birthday treat. He got me two of the Lord of the Rings figurine sets, one has the Ringwraiths (which he was planning to get me anyway) and the other was the only one that they had in the shop that I hadn’t got yet; a Warg-rider and his beast, in fact I think it’s the one that caused Aragorn to go over the cliff in the film. It’s obviously not from this country given the fact that it says Le Seigneur Des Anneaux on the side, but still it’s one that I don’t have so I’m not complaining. I also think it’s part of another set, because on the side of the box it shows two others from the same set, Warriors and Riders or something like that, one of the others is Aragorn and Brego and then there’s Legolas and his horse. Something else for me to try and find.

We also went to Stationary Box and I picked up a Parker fountain pen, some black ink cartridges, some Crayola ‘Blendables’ colouring pencils, some watercolour pencils and some liquid gel ink pens. Dad paid for all those for me, of course you can’t complain about that. After we’d picked up our few bits and pieces we went into TK Maxx where I got my bright pink Sketchers trainers, then to Singapore Express for lunch. Then back to Greenock.

I’d hoped to find a Russian dictionary in the WHSmiths there, but they’re hopeless, so I’ll have to order it off of Amazon. Then there was this cheap bag place where I got a huge, bright red suitcase for when I go to Russia. It’s one on wheels and it’s got loads of room. I’ll be able to fit plenty of clothes and stuff into it, although I’m sure that when it comes to packing I’ll find that it’s not nearly big enough. It cost £18 and was the biggest of three. Originally I was going to go for a medium sized one which was £15, but considering how much bigger it was we went for the biggest in the end.

We also went into one of the jewellery shops which is right next to the exit, it sells all kinds of ornaments in there as well as the usual necklaces, rings and bracelets. Right before Christmas Dad and I went in there to pick up a present for my Auntie Susan, we got her this purple Winnie the Pooh mirror, well the mirror was mirror coloured, but the frame was purple with Tigger stuck at the top of a tree. Dad also got me this Winnie the Pooh ornament, to start a collection, it’s Pooh Bear laying on his back with his nose in a honey pot, although I wasn’t allowed it until Christmas. They are based on the original Winnie the Pooh sketches, not the brightly coloured Disney ones we see today. At Christmas they had this calendar that I really wanted, the kind where you have a couple of number blocks, and then a couple of month blocks and you turn them around to get the date. It was blue and had Eeyore at one end and Pooh and Piglet at the other, with a sun and a moon and I fell in love with it. Well it cost £39.99 so Dad agreed to split the cost with me and we bought it. So YAY me!

That evening I went to drama (showing off my new trainers). We chatted for the first half of the session about our costumes; I’m going to have to wear a dress. Yikes! Then we worked out our stage directions for the end scene, which is taking the longest to plan seeing as there’s a lot of action and the script calls for plenty of upstaging, which we don’t want! Every movement has to be checked and changed to make sure that it works. We also had a little practise at the opening, when each of the characters is introduced to the audience. Each person comes on differently; Mídhaeriel sort of sweeps onto the stage in a very regal fashion; I follow next – rather shy, barely curtseying; then Túrqueniron, who does a sort of heroic sort of stance; then Benn who swashes his buck or something similar; and finally Nendatalamë, who sashays onto the stage and does a raunchy sort of can-can ruffle of her dress. It’s quite interesting now that we’re talking about costumes and the like. It feels more real somehow.

Ack! Will have to go to the doctor’s soon. Don’t want to have the injection, lol, okay so it’s safer if I do, don’t want to get Typhoid or Hepatitus A, but still. Apparently it only hurts as much as someone sticking a needle in your arm, and it just makes your arms feel a little sort afterwards. Also, I might not even be getting it today, I might be getting it later, at the end of May and this’ll just be a chat about pills I need to take with me and the like.

Either way, as long as Dad comes in with me I’ll be okay, I tend to forget things which are important if he’s not around and then doctors seem to think I’m just there to try and waste their time. I don’t really seem to have much respect for those in the medical services, do I? It’s not that I don’t, respect them that is, I just haven’t had many good experiences with doctors, dentists and misc, so I tend to be wary of the lot of them.

I’ve just spent a while finding all the Elvish names on Council of Elrond. That way I can talk about people using their Elvish names and it makes it seem less like I’m invading their privacy by posting things about them all over the net. Of course my family don’t really count, I’ll say what I like about them, although for those who are interested Tholinnas or Thol is my brother, who is seven years younger than me. He’s usually a pain, lol, just so you know.

Today I took the laptop to school again. Double free period first thing so I took the film Jack and Sarah which I suppose could also be called Mebdir and Aranel, yes, okay, this is bordering on an obsession now. The Power DVD software on this computer is newer than the one at home so everything looks different and is in different places than on the older one, but it was no big deal. I sat back and watched it, the timing was perfect the film lasted for one hour, forty-five minutes and my free periods equalled to about an hour and fifty minutes. Of course the film ran into breaktime by a couple of minutes, as I had to get the computer all set up to begin with, I paused it for a bathroom break and to turn the volume on the radio down and accidentally changed the chapter it was on and so had to fiddle around to get it back to the right place.

That film is so sweet and beautiful, it always makes me tear up, a proper weepy sort of film, lol. I’ve got a double free on Tuesday and I’ll be staying in to lunch then for the Russia meeting, so I’ll have to dig out a film to watch then. Perhaps I should take a longer one, Lord of the Rings perhaps, or something similar. I have to work down the shop tomorrow from one onwards, I’m not bothering to go into school tomorrow either. I only have double geography, as I don’t go to business management on Fridays, and I’ll be the only person in my class there, there are only six other people in the class, and they’re all involved in this Young Enterprise thing, which is all about running a business. They have to go away to give a presentation and won’t be back until tomorrow at eleven, exactly five minutes after the lesson finishes. So I shall spend the morning at home uploading bits ‘n’ pieces up onto the site.

Tomorrow I also have to go to the local chemists, cos that’s the only place on the island that does passport photos. Melannen, who’s the other half of my English class, works in there, so if I go when she’s not there it’ll be less embarrassing, lol. I think that passport photos are designed to be embarrassing. I think that next time I go to the mainland I’ll nip into the one in Tesco’s in Greenock and get some more done, it’ll save a lot of fuss and bother later on!

It’s for my Russian Visa thingy, which I have to fill out and take into school next week along with my passport and the hundred odd pounds that I’m paying in for the trip. I think that tomorrow I’ll bring the laptop down with me, so I have something to do in the shop. Seeing as I can watch DVDs and stuff down here (at the shop), I might bring Animal Attraction down to watch tomorrow, that’s another of those nice, girly, chick-flick type films. Plus it has Hugh Jackman in it, which is always a bonus.

Ack! Have to go in about ten minutes. Shoot. Or should that be shot? Whatever. I don’t mind as long as it’s quick and painless. I don’t want to make a fool of myself by passing out or whatever, although I’m usually okay, providing I can see what it is they’re doing. I don’t trust anyone near me with sharp objects, with relatively good reason anyway.

Oh well, five minutes to go. Might as well end it here and then I can come back on tonight while I watch Friends and E.R. then I can type some more. I mean, it’s the end of the month tomorrow, so I might as well type enough to make the April 2004 page worth while!

Tally-ho!

Still 29th April
6:50pm
Am back home after everything. The nurse was good. It was actually just a meeting to assess when I should get the injection done, and to chat about other stuff that I might need while to do before I go. I’m still swinging between being really excited and really nervous about going. I’ve got to learn some more Russian, I’m doing quite well at the moment, I can say ‘yes’, ‘no’, ‘hello’, ‘goodbye’, ‘hi’, ‘bye’ and ‘thank you’ and I’m getting better at writing in the Cyrillic alphabet, although I’m still not very good as reading it.

I have to admit that I find the guy on the CD has the sexiest voice. I think that he’s definitely a native Russian speaker, also he has a slightly American accent sometimes when he speaks. I suppose it could be from learning English from an American teacher or something, because when there was this trip to France the people who came back said that the young kids at school spoke English with an American accent because that’s what they had been taught from.

Anyway, I haven’t done any Russian practise for a while, so I guess I should probably get on and do it tomorrow. I don’t mind. I don’t even have a great deal of trouble with the pronunciation like I did with German, although it’s not as easy as I found French. I’m quite enjoying it. I think it’s really important to be able to talk to the people that we’re staying with in their own language, apparently the parents don’t speak any English and the children know a little, so it’d be rather rude to go and not actually talk to any of them. It’s also useful to know things to help us when we’re in the country, like what it’s polite to say when someone gives you something, and the fact that when you go to churches or museums you have to wear long sleeves. Useful things which’ll help you get by in the country.

Right now I’m working in the middle room. I’m also in the process of translating friends names into Elvish names, both Sindarin and Quenyan, so that when I talk about them in here I’m not necessarily doing it behind their backs, but I’m giving them pseudonyms so that it makes them harder to trace, lol, plus because it gives me an excuse to play around with Elvish names. Thol and I are watching The Simpsons and he’s debating what he wants to do when he leaves school.

Tonight is Big Thursday on E4, I love Thursdays, lol, Friends and E.R. couldn’t make a better evening. The only thing that could make it better would be if they stuck CSI was on at the same time. Three times a week I sit down with my big bag of popcorn to watch TV with Dad, Thursdays for Friends and E.R., Saturdays for Casualty and CSI: Miami, and on Tuesdays for regular CSI. Tonight is no exception, and I’ve only got about an hour before I put it on to heat it all up.

Dad just told me that the woman that I designed a site for thinks it is too plain and wants more, now she’s going to draw up a list of things she wants me to put onto it. Well THANKS that’s only what I’ve asked for since the beginning. This woman is really not helping, everything I’ve asked her for she’s ignored. They keep on telling me that they don’t like what I’ve done for them, but they don’t tell me what they want! It’s so annoying. I feel very tempted to tell them that it’s not worth the amount they’re going to pay me for it. I’ll probably get about £150 for doing it, but I think I could probably pay that to pass them on to someone else. The only reason they want me to do it is because they’re too tight to pay a proper web designer.

Anyway, rant over, more or less. I’m going to have to do some homework this weekend. I’m supposed to be writing an essay for English, not that I want to or need to, but anyway, I just don’t care about it. Plus it’s on a subject that I probably won’t end up writing about in the exam, since I just don’t understand Edwin Morgan’s poetry as it is, let alone trying to decipher what he’s trying to say in the damn things.

She wants me to hand it in on Monday so that she can check it over and I can put it into note form ready for Wednesday, when I’m supposed to be writing it up. I have a feeling she will be harder on me with this essay than she was with the Tolkien one, as with that one she didn’t know what I was talking about so she could only criticise the spelling, grammar and punctuation. This one she seems to know about, so I suppose I’ll have to write about something to do with Edwin Morgan. First I’ll have to dig out the question that I’m supposed to be writing about, then I suppose I’ll root around the internet and see if I can find any information about what the hell Morgan is writing about.

Right now I’m watching Hallmark on Sky, there’s some programme on called The Guardian it’s quite good I think, not that I know any of the characters, but it’s another of those crime series things. There’s a whole selection of these law programmes at the moment; CSI, CSI: Miami, Law and Order, Law and Order: Criminal Intent, Law and Order: Special Victims Unit, Judging Amy and now apparently, The Guardian. It’s almost as bad as the sudden influx in hospital dramas over the years, although the only ones I really pay any attention to these days are; E.R., Casualty, Scrubs and occasionally Holby City. I really have a quite broad view of programmes, although there are just a few that I actually watch religiously.

I’m only really watching The Guardian because there’s nothing else on until nine, then it’s Friends. Man, how boring is this? Rambling on about TV and programmes, then again, TV is pretty much a family thing here. Dad always complains about having to watch what I want to watch, but all the same he enjoys them just as much as me, I’m sure.

Today my birthday has been drawn out that little bit longer, I got home and found that Marillë next door had brought round a small present for me. She said that she doesn’t normally bother with birthday presents (although she always brings us selection boxes at Christmas), but seeing as I was turning eighteen it was an important one. It was in a patterned paper bag and inside on a silver chain was a little stone pendant. It’s really beautiful and it sort of changes as the light hits it, it has these kind of stripes which move down it as you move it. I really love it.

I went in to see Balanauth and Melannen to say thanks for the Winnie the Pooh wall plate they let me have. Balanauth wasn’t in but Melannen was, although she was with a customer so I didn’t stop long, I just said thanks and left. I’ll have to nip round to see Marillë tomorrow, she usually takes Kimmy out at eleven, so if I take Patch out at about then they can play together and I can talk to Marillë. It all works out nicely.

Wow! I’ve written loads today. I’m heading towards five pages, definitely making this April 2004 page worth it. I’ll go onto the computer tomorrow and upload the new pages meaning the fan fiction one that I took months to do, mainly because I just haven’t had the time. At least I have a little free time coming up now, probably my last I’m gonna have til I retire, lol, after this it’s off to Uni and work work work! Ah! The joys of growing up.

I realised today that it’s only about two weeks til my first exam, and about eighteen days until my second, then I have about two or three weeks before Business Management. The first is English, which I’ll probably screw up immensely. Not that it bothers me, I’m into Uni, I don’t even need to sit these exams, I’ve got everything I need to get me into Uni, I’m in, I’m there, I’m sorted. This is all an annoying waste of time, which isn’t helped by the fact that I’m hardly going to school at the moment, lol, and I’ve just remembered that it’s a Bank Holiday on Monday so the Cave Troll won’t be able to mark my stuff then, pah! At least it gives me an extra day to work on it.

Hmm… I’m thinking about tomorrow. I think I’ll see if Dad can let me have a bit of a lie-in. He doesn’t need me down the shop until one, so if I aim to be down there between twelve-thirty and one then I’ll have time to go round to the chemists to get my picture taken. That’d mean that I don’t need to leave the house until about twelve, so I can stay in bed until about eight or nine, then get up to do some Russian and website work. Then take Patch out, say thanks, get lunch, then nip down to the shop.

Hopefully I’ll get paid for being down there in the afternoon, perhaps get this weeks wages up to £30, every little helps, even if it is a little £5 bonus. Plus if I take a film down with me I’ll be easily entertained, Animal Attraction is a perfect Friday afternoon film. I’m thinking on Saturday I’ll take The Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring. That’ll keep me happy, VERY happy!

Anyway, I had better get going, gotta get my popcorn and put the TV onto E4, so that’s all from here for tonight. More tomorrow hopefully!